Let him go

"Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah, you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can't see yourself with anyone else than him,I get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home,bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls.Yeah,you will see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself,cause straight up;it's gonna hurt. He will old her a little closer and sqeeze her hand a little tigher just because he knows you're watching. He knows it's killing you; that's why he will do it.Don't let him get to you because that,well that's exactly what he wants. Don't give him what he wants. He doesn't even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you;do you honestly be friend with an asshole like him anyway? Thing is.. I know you still do. But give it time. Because all you would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No.Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who's not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close,he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go,when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just didn't love you the same. Trust me,he will be sorry. And don't you sit there thinking he won't be sorry, I know you are. But I guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don't go on spending your nights waiting for one that phone call you know you never get. Or that IM you know he will never send you just because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he doesn't see you online, he does it out of spite just because he knows it's killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cause he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I'm not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It's all gonna hurt. Knowing you're not the girl that's making him smile. Knowing you're not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knoing you're not the face on his background of his phone. Knowing if he hasn't already he will delete the album of pictures of you, he has on his phone. Knowing you won't be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there's not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what today,tomorrow,months from now; your phone will go off with a text message,you will instantly grab your phone hoping it's him saying he wants to give yous relationship another shot. But trust me he's got to much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn't tell you. You're gonna soon realize he doesn't care you anymore and he won't pe the first person you call when you're upset. He won't pe the one to put that smile on your face. And yeah,it's gonna hurt,it's gonna hurt a lot. But you know what you gonna do?  You're gonna hold your head up. You're gonna show him that you're better than him and you don't need him in your life. You gonna prove him that he made the biggest mistake of his life -letting you go- and that you'll never really needed him anyways.

-Seduce me-

Iubirea

     Stii ce e cel mai frumos sentiment? Iubirea. Dar nu aceea cand stii ca iubesti,dar te plictisesti iubind. Acea iubire cand puteti fi inca cei mai buni prieteni.Acea iubire cand abia astepti sa il vezi,sa il strangi in brate si sa ii simti in sfarsit buzele dupa o asa perioada lunga,dupa atata asteptare. Ce se poate intampla? Apare o fata.O noua fata pe care el se hotaraste ca vrea sa o descopere..Ce se intampla cu tine? Inca speri ca el sa se intoarca la tine..chiar si dupa 2 luni de relatie cu ea. Chiar si acum tu inca te gandesti la el,tii la el. Te simti ranita,te simti singura si neindreptatita. Nu stii nici acum de ce te-a lasat,dupa o mica cearta a decis sa renunte la tine. Ati petrecut 3 luni vorbindu-va si facandu-va planuri,urma sa fie o vara nemaipomenita,sa va tineti de mana si sa va plimbati in ciuda tuturor. 
     Ai plans,ai suspinat,ti-a fost dor..sufereai dupa el,iar el era fericit cu ea. In fiecare clipa te gandeai la el si stiai ca el se gandeste numai la ea,ca pe tine te-a uitat. Motivul banal,ceva ce te face sa te gandesti mereu daca tu chiar asa de usor de uitat ai fost..Ai fi vrut ca viitorul sa fie altul,viitorul sa te aiba pe tine si pe el in prim-plan. Acum ii esti cea mai buna prietena,esti acea persoana care ii face bine si ii da sfaturi pentru a-l ajuta. Alta nu ar fi facut la fel in locul tau. Ce ai de gand sa faci in continuare? Sa te gandesti la el,sa il iubesti in timp ce altul te iubeste pe tine? Normal, pentru ca tu esti acel gen de perosana care se gandeste la altii mai intai de a se gandi la el,acea perosana care zambeste cand vede ca o persoana zambind si mai ales cand acel zambet iti este adresat tie sau tu esti vinovat pentru el.
     Zambesti,iubesti,plangi,esti trist,ierti,treci peste...Esti om si mergi mai departe!

Realitatea din ochii mei

    Acest minunat proiect a inceput in luna februarie.Am fost foarte fericita sa aflu ca se va desfasura in orasul nostru un proiect pe baza photovoice-ului si mai ales a fotografiei,eu fiind foarte pasionata de surprinderea cat mai multor lucruri prin obiectivul aparatului.Mi s-a parut o provocare,avand in vedere ca nu mai lucrasem cu asa ceva,dar bineinteles stiam despre ce este vorba.

     Am primit mai multe detalii legate de acest proiect si odata cu ele si cererea de face o scrisoare de intentie care trebuia trimisa cu scopul alegerii membrilor echipei de voluntariat.

     Prima intalnire a constat in cunoasterea fiecarui membru al echipei nu prin iesirea fiecaruia in fata si facand o scurta descriere a noastra ci prin intermediul a mai multor jocuri de cunoastere. Pentru inceput a fost foarte bine,ajungand cu timpul sa ne cunostem din ce in ce mai bine,devenind astfel buni prieteni.

    Am avut cate 2 ba chiar 3 intalniri pe saptamana,astfel adunandu-se cat mai multe poze din orasul nostru cu locuri nu tocmai potrivite unui oras. Am organizat prima expozitie de fotografie prin metoda photovoice din oras la Castelul Artelor unde numerosi oameni au fost prezenti si de asemenea  si televiziunea. Am organizat fotografiile din expozitie astfel incat fiecare fotografie avea mesajul transmis de aceasta,lipit in josul cartonului pe care poza a fost aplicata. Dupa prima expozitie au urmat mai multe,unele desfasurandu-se in Casa Corpului Didactic Mehedinti sau chiar la laboratorul de vara din localitatea Brebina unde toti membrii timp de o saptamana au beneficiat de indrumarea unor traineri veniti din Bucuresti.Am capatat multa experienta pe durata proiectului datorita oamenilor de care am fost indrumati. Nu am simtit nicio clipa ca atmosfera devine tensionata sau ca suntem prea obositi,plictisiti sa facem activitatile propuse in proiect.Mereu am fost cu zambetul pe buze si gata de noi provocari. Pe langa activitatile pe care le-am facut in proiect,ne-am facut timp si am jucat chiar si cateva jocuri precum:Mafia,Psihiatrul,Eu niciodata..,Saboteour si asa mai departe. Am profitat de fiecare clipa petrecuta impreuna si am stiut sa ne formam ca si grup.

   De aceea la ceremonia de inmanare a certificatului pentru terminarea proiectului,toti am fost atat de emotionati,ba mai mult,din partea trainerului nostru Adrian Duta am vizionat un filmulet cu poze facute pe toata durata proiectului.Un filulet care pe noi toti ne-a emotionat foarte tare. Si nu numai asta,ne astepta intr-o alta incapere un tort cu sigla proiectului. 

   Totul a fost minunat si niciodata nu as spune -pas- unui asemenea proiect.

Opening

So let's see.. Numele meu..Roxana. Nascuta pe data de 30/03/1998 in orasul Drobeta Turnu Severin,Mehedinti care se intampla sa fie si orasul meu natal.Am ales sa scriu pe un blog datorita nevoii mele de autocunoastere,care este unul din cele mai importante lucruri in viata.Nu am sa fac altceva decat sa scriu despre mine,placerile mele,prietenii mei..o sa fac cea mai detaliata descriere a mea.